i'm so scared

my heart's racing, i'm getting sweaty, tho that could be due to the fact that i'm in a stuffy room with no air conditioning whatsoever.

Anywhoooo,
tmw i've got an interview, and it's daunting, i will be judged based on every word i breathe out. and the final judgement will decide my future, omggggg

this is just too scary,

i have been reading, random news, keeping my self up to date. omggg

too scary

currently sitting in my dad's office, gonna print out my application form soon.

then compile all my certs and what not, then probably get home, maybe practice how to put on make up so i know how i'm gonna look tmw,
sleep early,
oh i am also thinking of driving there tonight, just so i know where the place is.

omg i wanna cry

i hate that i always feel scared. it's so silly.
okay, there is nothing to be scared about, don't worry, just chill, breathe in, breathe out. you will ace that interview, and everything will go how it should be.

Krsna!
I'm so sorry for asking you for stuff. ok nvm, i'll just do this my self.

i can do itttttt

:)

i WILL do it!

:)
x

the child

so,
my class with Erica, was just alright. At first i thought it'd be more interesting, but the content was too dull for me. although what i did learn was that, when she wasn't listening to me, i was begining to lose my temper,

then it dawned on to me, what's the point, it's not like she's gonna understand, she's just a small 2 yr old kid.

so no point picking fights there.

so Erica's parents have sent her to a pre school somewhere near pavillion that follows the shichida method of teaching, a method that relies heavily on flash cards.

i went through each flashcard slowly, explaining what it was meant for, but apparently, it's supposed to be done really fast, like *tap* Tap* Tap*!

will do that tmw, and zomg, her house is soo farrrrrr

but it's okay, i'll do this, probably jsut for a couple of months.
coincidently, on that day i had lunch with a random dutch lady, we were both having our lunches alone, and thought we'd keep each other company,
and she was telling me about how in holland, kids dn't do any form of learning till they are 6!
now isn't that interesting! i guess that's the difference between a developed and less developed country, there is a lesser level of stress

meanwhile, i got the call today! I was really excited, and i need to prepare !

I really ammmmmm

the dutch lady, Else, also told me about the 5 tibetan rights, from which she even had 6 packs! so i've been working on that now! it's really fun! and quick to do, i hope i'll be disciplined enough to do it all week :)

ok gonna go sleep now! work tmwwww
night!

a new challenge

today,
at 10.30 am later, i will be taking on a new task. i will be handling a little girl!

she's about 2 years old, i'm not sure, will confirm once i speak to her.

but her parents have asked me to teach her, converse with her in english etc.

truthfully i am not one who is interested in kids, in fact, i'm not such a big fan of them. but for this one,
i wanna take it on as a project! it'll be my first time being in such close proximity to a kid, i wanna see how i go about interacting with her!
hope it all goes well, and it's sort of training for me when i become a mum!

i really am excited! and can't wait! woopp woop

i will be sure to update here on the progress of this little project!

Sir Butler

he was brought to us my the opposite neighbuor, as a cute little tiny puppy, my brother and i took care of him.

fed him, gave him milk, let him bite our shoes to relax his teeth,

albeit a little bit of a dumb dog, he was the best, he'd guard our house and make sure no living thing other than the masters of the house could enter. not even relatives or friends.

he's probably killed about 10 snakes and 5 iguana's. making sure those creatures do not enter our house.

he'd run towards us eveytime we'd come home, knew he should stay away from nityaka and appa, but the rest of us, we were like chocolate to him, he'd lick us happy and give us a grand welcoming every single day.

to think that even after 13 years he'd get bored, but never has he once sat around when were coming back.

today, he could barely get up, and seeing him trying to get away from the fireworks was heartbreaking considering he couldn't even move his legs. i had to drag him away, further into the porch.

Butler,
you are my first dog, my most special dog. you've always been there for me and i love you for that, i know i used to bully you, but it's only cos you were my world.

i hope you're not in pain cos i really can't bear to put you to sleep

love
indu

one more thing

i don't mean to brag, but for this past week, i
ve been runnnin 3km's in less than 20 minutes! everytime i go to the gym!

i really am proud, just wish the fat would go away though!

i think i've run about a minimum of 10 km this week! woop woop

small letters

have you realised,

i've not used upper case letters at all!
muahahahahha

and my most precious dog is now practically on his death bed. well he's veryy sick, he's got a bloated stomach, cos it's getting filled with fluids that cannot be excreted due to a kidney failure and now the swelling seems to be passing on to his hind legs.

i really am sad, i wouldn't know who to call out to when i go home everyday

:(

to Sir Butler Kamalanathan, you're the love of my life, i hope you can last as long as you can!

i woof youuu

(not that you will anyways read this but yeah.... you ma dawg)

kids

i am really trying to understand the concept of having kids, i know if there wasn't one 20 odd years ago i wouldn't be typing here!

but they're so expensive, and no matter what, any parent would definitely wanna give their child the best! i know i would, but if they're gonna drain all my money away, howww???
i dunno man,

anyways, my dad was telling me about how some of his friends, who were once very wealthy, now just have enough wealth, not too much not too little.

and where did all their wealth disappear to? sending their kids overseas for studies...

gosh...

but now looking at one of my aunts who are kinda struggling to sent both their kids to med school, it's saddens me to know that getting an education can be so difficult for some !

i'm so grateful to my parents and when i further my studies next, i will pay for it my self!

i wish i had enough money so i could send all my cousins to school and just ease the burden for everyone! (this is serious)

ok have to go now! (my 2 best friends are fighting, i've got a terry fox run tmw!)