i'm okay about it

I just got some bad news, before which provided me with a large amount of hope.

and now, in a single fax, all that hope is gone.

as much as I wanted it, I'm glad, it's given be the opportunity to be a completely clean person and I will not have such a black dot in my life. I'm glad I was given this opportunity and from now it's gonna be a clean start.

I can't wait, I have loads of plans, for which I will be needing to read extensively.

yay!

I'm great about it!
Indravenidotk

making time to run

that, I have been doing! excitedly at it too!

the reason being? I downloaded some delicious music into my Ipod Nano and

wow,

I love it!

it makes me walk fast to the point I don't realize and I now have pains at the back of my leg and today at one point the music was too good to no run to!

that too at a very fast pace! Oh life is beautiful when ure running or walking to music.

some of the tracks on my list:

Paradise - coldplay ( a remixed version)
Run the world -Beyonce

some dubstep as usual

one U2 track.
stronger- Kanye west

and if you're wondering where I get my music from,
I get it from Soundcloud

I love this site, it exposes me to so many kinds of music! you can also download the mobile app, I have one on my android phone and can stream music so easily.

and almost everything is free! there are some artists who post their music as well, for sale,

I haven't bought any so far, once I'm in a more liquid position and if I find that perfect track, I would definitely love to buy and support budding artists!

ok its back to work now
Indravenidotk

not making enough time

I didn't make time for all the things I wished to do for the past two weeks.

for e.g. blogging, my two other businesses

the internet is a great resource for information, at the same time it's so distracting. oh how I could block some of the sites that I visit.

anyhow, for some quick updates:

my climb to Mount Kinabalu was amazing, I felt positive throughout the climb, I reached laban Rata which is the 6 km check point in slightly more than 6 hours, which is great! it's within the fit level, compared to the last time where I took 10 ++ hours. how embarrassing.

regardless, I made it to laban rata, I never felt like giving up at any point of time, I just climbed, climbed at my own pace.

the next day however, when we all awoke in the early morning, around 2AM, in the freezing temperatures to climb to the peak, about 2 hours into the climb, we had to turn back as it started raining and it was dangerous to climb.

in this part of the climb, I was quided by another guide and he had an immensely negative impact on me. I felt weak, tired and wanted to turn back, the previous day however, the guide would just be silent everyvtime I stopped to take a break and left me at my own pace.

and it made me realize how I let negativity impact me, I shouldn't.

Yes I should only surround my self around positive energy, however, if there is inevitable negative energy approaching, I should strengthen my individual self to block it.

so that will be in the pipeline for me, not allowing others to dissuade me, not fearing others and their perceptions and just not having fear in general. it's just a waste of time.

I'm positive
Indravenidotk

can be better

something that was recently brought to my attention:

things/situations/ I can be better.

if things/situations aren't going good, always say that it can be better. I have a bad habit of talking about lots of negative things, for e.g. saying I'm starving, or dying,

ok those are the only two things that come up right now, point is, I always go to extreme ends on the negative scale. and this should stop.

also, when I apply for posts and don't get them, I feel very rejected. but a friend recently told me, that it's only because there was someone better, so it is me, but I can still be worked on.

previously, I'd always think that I was just a lousy loser, so from now on the thoughts are gonna change to; there's someone better, you've gotta keep up.

so no more lamenting from now on.

cheers
Indravenidotk

fear & mistakes

there's something different happening to me right now. I feel a lot more courageous. I have generally feared people, fear of being rejected, fear of disappointing them, fear of not living up to their expectations.

I realize that this is very sill of me. it's gonna stop now. one of my fears included not being able to rent out my apartment and settling for lower rental. which I feel was a grave error on my part. now I'll be losing out on an annual income of about RM1200.

I'm gonna stop being pushed around, stop settling for easier things, not have people talk inappropriately to me and speak my mind.

another problem that I have, is that, I make mistakes, I have to stop, I have to learn from other peoples mistakes, and this is not by merely listening to my dad, but it's to probe, and ask questions, from people I meet and talk to.

and uhh, this is not a new years thing, cos it's the third of January, I have a bad flu, woke up today and realized that my tenancy agreement should not be prepared by my tenant. I should be doing it. It is a legal document.

so everything has to be done with a first class standard. I will not settle for anything less. period.

indravenidotk

currently procrastinating

I'm supposed to fill up the agency forms, track our office computers, talk to some service providers about implementing faxing straight from the computer

but instead I've made plans for the 29th of December, for a road trip with some girlfriends NEXT DECEMBER, read about how the French have voted Anne Sinclair (wife of DSK) as woman of the year, sometimes I'm shocked at the kinds of decisions women make, still catching up on current events and awaiting lunch when I realised,

I have been procrastinating!!!

so I thought I'd quickly write here, just to prove that I am not procrastinating, but in fact I am cos by writing here, I am again deviating from my work.

what a vicious cycle

it's year end!!! Nobody's supposed to workkkk

indravenidotk

people of devotion

it really amazes me how some people dedicate large portions of their life for God. I have two guests at home, they are a recently married couple. the husband was previously a sanyasi.

a Sanyasi is someone who has decided to renounce all material possessions and relationships to pursue spiritual interests. thereby dedicating life to God only.

so, somewhere along the way, he found his soul mate and decided to get married. it is very interesting to see them as they are slightly different from other couples. the one thing I always see them doing together is praying and meditating.

after constantly being exposed to couples who are publicly displaying their affection for one another (which kinda grosses me out) this couple on the other hand are constantly praying or chanting.

it's strangely normal.

in the morning they're singing bhajans, in the evening again it's bhajans and in between, they have their chanting beads and are chanting. I don't know what they do other times as I'm out of the house.

one things for sure, having this couple at home sure has brought me back to reality.

that perfect gift

I found it!

it's the most perfect gift and timeless. it's from Pandora

I'm buying a bracelet, with two charms of the letters "D" & "R" it's costing me an arm and a leg, I would never buy my self such an expensive gift. but luckily two of my friends also wanna contribute to the gift, that makes it less expensive.

but I thought about it, it's for a dear friend, I've known her for ages, and this is a great achievement i.e. her becoming a doctor

I can't wait to go and buy it tomorrow or day after. will try to take a picture.

meanwhile, I am still having diarrhea and life has been miserable. I'm hungry, weak and just tired, not to mention the least bit happy about having to wake up at 3 am to go to the toilet

help me
Indravenidotk

doctor gifts

one of my best-est retards just graduated and is a full fledged doctor and I have no idea what to buy her.

I'll definitely get her a card, but what else??

an engraved stethoscope? a chain?

I looked up some ideas on the internet, and found bacteria and virus shaped cups and plush toys, they're fun, but they aren't timeless.

I wanna give her something that will last through her journey of success.

confession: I made her school life a little miserable, out of jealousy, I turned all our friends against her, it was so childish of me, when school ended and when I came back from India I think, well at some point in my life, I apologised and she accepted me back again.

and now we're back to being best retards.

and now I have the dilemma of buying that perfect gift. I'm not one to usually buy gifts, but when I do, it's for an important occasion and it has to be perfect!

maybe a plaque? saying the most retarded doctor? (noooo)

or something silver? I wont get jewelry unless it's in related to medicine. maybe some furniture??
this is gonna be strenuous and I only have till this sunday to get it! Going t meet her on the 26th!

help me
Indravenidotk

food poisoning

currently suffering from food poisoning, woke up in the morning and decided to head butt my toilet bowl and gave it a round of vomit.

it was traumatizing, then I went back to sleep, woke up an hour later to get ready for work.
had some diarrhea, got ready went downstairs and realised, hey I so don't have the energy to go to work.

went back to bed, passed out, had several interruptions as I slept with my phone.
woke up again and head butted the toilet bowl again.

gross

it was already past lunch by now, got ready to go to work as I had some things to get done, and had another round of diarrhea again.

I have no idea what I ate, but I just wish I never ate it. I feel lousy right now.

the only thing that brightened my day is that my newly graduated doctor friend has come back! and she called! can't wait to meet her on the 26th

cheers

till I get better
indravenidotk

highlights of the week

managed to save RM2.50 on parking when I rushed to pay for it by a minute.

formed a sole proprietorship ( as much as I'd love to give details, I found that when I disclose information to masses on things I plan to do, they never turned out as planned; I know, very stupid belief)

submitted my company docs to my company secretary, almost after 2 weeks of delay!

Mum came back! with loads of fruits and chocolate and a very heavenly bathrobe!

that's about it guess... dang, I thought this week had a lot more to it, must be the amnesia.

the upcoming weekend hasn't started but is very busy. got a wedding to attend tomorrow night, and my friend from jakarta, chandni is coming down, some exercise in the morning, cleaning in the apartment in the afternoon. packed day indeed

and I'm so not blogging over the weekend. lets be fair.

have a blissful weekend
Indravenidotk

signatures

have you ever had to sign so many documents at one go and you found it hard to maintain the consistency in the signature?

I usually have that problem. I know have on my desk, about an inch thick stack of papers that need my signatures, what's making this Ia bigger ordeal, I recently changed my signature and am already struggling with its consistency.

it should be fine.

yesterday I was flipping through some old photo albums and it was really nice to look through them and seeing how we have all changed physically. one thing that I have managed to keep consistent is my sense of mischief and out going personality.

it was interesting to know, that I liked making my self different, whether it's through making a face, or posing (like a boss) on a rock or making funny faces for my brother to laugh at.

I hope to upload the photos here, before which I will check if there is a blogger mobile app that will enable easier upload of pictures from my mobile.

if yes?! you're in for a treat

indravenidotk

greeting s from my mobile!



My little brother n me




Bro me n sis



Mum n sis

Morning conversations

okay, pretty much the whole world my family knows that I am not a morning person.

if I've just woken up, I like to spend time in my room, just waking up, then maybe do some yoga postures, shower,

then I come down a grunt to my dad get my breakfast drink, avoid eye contact with my maid, go feed my dogs.

this is a typical morning, and I sound like a bi*ch!

now, if I were staying in my friends house, which is mostly because we were probably partying the night before, the typical scene would be:

me waking up, see if the others are awake, go downstairs, greet my friends' mom, tell her what a crazy night it was last night, go back up stairs start waking up my friends by asking them stupid questions like "are you still sleeping? I'm bored"

then go back downstairs and chow dome some food to cure the creeping hangover and go back home where I proceed to laze in the comfort of my own home. now this is not the usual morning, only when I'm out partying on weekends.

so back to my purpose, what is it that people, in particular, families talk to each other about in the mornings

as I'm pretty sure nothing major could have happened between the time you go to sleep at night and when you wake up in the morning, other than perhaps a crazy dream involving llamas and donkeys or maybe even elbowing the person next to you in your sleep

and I absolutely dislike being cheery in the morning. so all those "GOOD MORRNINGGG ISN'T IT A BEAUTIFUL DAY TODAY?!" absolutely do not go well with me, if anything they make me insecure haha

in a family with younger kids, the morning conversation would be something along the lines of this blog i found while researching breakfast conversations

in my home lately, ever since I started working with my dad, when we do meet in the mornings; as sometimes my dad leaves earlier than me to go to the gym, our conversations revolve around what needs to be done for the day, or plans for the company.
it's not bad, but I can help but wonder what would be talking about had I not joined his company...

I can't say that I'd like to start talking to anyone in particular in the morning, I still like to have my quiet time in the morning, maybe even listen to some nice music and read the papers

yes, that would be nice indeed, some silence. mmm yeahhhhh

tell me what you think you would like to do in the mornings?

my dream breakfast:
toast
avacado
peanut butter
grape fruit
orange juice

yummmm
indravenidotk

truly an inspiration

Hillary Clinton's speech recently delivered at Geneva at the United Nations on the 6th of December 2011 in recognition of International Human Rights Day.

Part 1


Part 2


besides the contents of this truly remarkable speech, Ms Hillary Clinton has delivered this speech with confidence, compassion and passion. anyone listening to this would definitely be able to understand where she comes from. she touches all aspects of the issue, personal, political, religious.

the words used in the speech also clearly reflect what she thinks of the issue.

the speech has been well organised and definitely well delivered.

I am just really intrigued to know whether she had previously practiced this speech. her eye contact and hand gestures with the audience is completely natural.
tho I must admit, in the beginning of her speech, I could sense her nervousness, but it all disappeared in a matter of minutes into the speech.

this speech has once again inspired me to be more serious and committed with my Toastmasters group!

not bad eh,
two posts in one day!
this is me not procrastinating!
indravenidotk

yesterday, whilst at the toilet, (after effects of coffee) I thought to my self that I should write a little on .

and since I have a masters in and know how to procrastinate like there's always a tomorrow, I did just that, what I thought yesterday is materializing today.

I procrastinated on so many things yesterday. I honestly wish I didn't procrastinate, it's one of my worst traits.

so, I shall begin the ending of my procrastinating days by updating this blog on a daily basis.

even if it's just one word

laters now
indravenidotk

coffee

this drink I tell you, is such a paradox.

I was feeling fatigued and so I proceeded to make and drink some coffee, before which, I actually have no idea how to make this drink. It never tastes the same and nice for that matter.

I usually put one teaspoon of coffee, 2 tsps of coffee mate and 1.5 sugar, but my coffee usually smells burnt, or tastes dilute, or not sweet enough.

then those guys at "mamaks" make them and its perfect. they don't have to taste it to make sure it's okay.
I taste mine and its never okay!

how annoying, actually, it's a blessing, I'm just not meant to be domesticated. besides, if I can outsource it, why not right??

So back to my dilemma with coffee, when I type the word "coffee" I can hear my self saying cofffffff feee ... cos of the double f's and double e's

anyhoooo, coffee makes me poo and that's just annoying.

cheers

the shower

that's what i wanted to write about earlier. the shower, these things are so fun after the gym, and also very necessary, in fact compulsory.

anyways, oh, before i forget, i caught my self standing stagnant on the escalator, and i was just looking at the view in a gaze, i guess that's what people who stand on the escalator do. the walkers, i guess just grumble about the stagnants!

anyways, bact to the shower, i like drinking in the shower, be it an ice cold bottle of water or maybe hundred plus!
of course nothing would beat an ice cold beer, oh and let it go down your body too!
ice cold beer or water going over your body!
slurp!

so yeah, next time you take a shower, bring in a bottle of water... or beer :D

cheers,
i'm listening to some awesome music mixed by dj Garbriel and joey

http://soundcloud.com/deephousesociety/dhs-session-oo1

awesome shitttttt

:D

till later then!

Festivals

i don't understand the concept of festivals, celebrating them is fine, but the whole act of having to buy new clothes, cook more than usual, on an ANNUAL basis just seems all too tiring to me. I'm not being lazy or anything, it's jsut that, it's every year, don't people get bored of it?!

however something like a new job, now that doesn't happen often, or even a promotion, then it's something to celebrate. But the same thing every year? sigh
you should be greatful to whoever's taking care of you, (God and yourself included) everyday, not just on special occasions.

stagnant escalators

what do people think of while waiting on the escalator, why don't they just use that time walking up instead?
I'd understand if you were wearing a pencil skirt, in that case, you're unable to walk! or if you're old and tired. But for the most working class who should be healthy, why don't they walk up the escalator. (o good way to pump your heat in the mornings)
imagine standing in one place for about 2 minutes. any sane person wouldn't do it, so why do it on an escalator, just cos it's moving is not an excuse.

move people!

oh, the other day, while i was walking down the escalator, as usual there's some imbecile or the other who would stand on the right, when there are signboards clearly saying, keep left to let others pass through.
so one guy who was walking down, was being a blocked by another fellow who had either ignored the sign or could not understand english.
and the walking guy was like" brotha, look at the sign la bro"

and i thought that was super cool! it probably takes a lot of confidence to do that as well as charisma since the imbecile was a complete stranger.

I wanna do that too!
So what would i have to say?
Dude, check out the sign man...
what if it's a woman?!?
hi, you should let others pass though by standing on the left you know! and then laugh it off and walk away quickly?

i think that'd be a lot better than actually grumbling to my self.

Next!
Couples!
I understand that couples wanna be with each other till death do us part and stuff...

BUT EVEN ON THE ESCALATOR?! come onnnnnnn